What is Going on?

I haven't written any complaints or feeling on this blog for a while. I wonder if i've become more amenable, more taciturn, or just more apathetic.

***It's strange. As we age, things that seemed to matter suddenly becomes insignificant.

I used to think I really loved him. I couldn't get over him no matter what I did. Eventually, his shadow just turned into a blur in my memory. I even dreamed about him a few times, and we were happy in my dreams. But then I would realize the next day that I didn't miss him; I merely missed the good times we had spent together. He's no longer my "dream man".

***"If you don't like something the way it is, change it." --B.L.

A friend used to encourage me with that phrase. I like the passion and inititive it delivers. I am working on it. Trust me, I'll do it.

***Never try to please your mother, because you can never do it" --Steven Chu, Nobel Laureate

It always bothers me when I think of how much my parents want me to be with them. It's at the point where I think I am their property. I don't quite understand their love. Is it their loneliness? Or is it their manipulative nature? Why do they never let me grow up? I already feel horrible enough that I act like an inmature child all the time. Why do they need to spin the guilt card to make me feel even worse about myself?

DD's Birthday,( Prelude) TB Continued...

Happy early Birthday, Dickson!

haha... You are a grown-up now, 25!

My Dear Friends' Visit

Thanks, Donna!

As I wept myself into the state of exhaustion, suppressing the pain and ache caused by my over-heated body, I heard a voice fallen from the sky:" Are you OK?"

"No, I am not." -Me

"I bought you Emergen-C, made you some Gingseng tea, and some grits. Take them when you can. Feel better!" -Donna.

That was the most heart-warming feeling ever. Thanks, Donna, for being so caring!

I literally felt like I was dying. I don't recall feeling like this ever since I could remember. It was the most devastating fever I have ever gotten. I slept throught the entire Saterday, well, 30+ hours. I suddenly got the fever on Friday night, and it didn't go down until Sunday morning.

Thank God it's over now! I really appreciate Donna's help. It wasn't much, but it's all I needed from a friend who cares. =)

Moving My Office to the Pilot Plant

Valentine's Day, Everyday

Can everyday be Valentine's day?

I miss the cup of indulging cappuccino I had on 2007 Valentine's Day in Florence, Italy.
If valentine's day is what it takes to redeem this cup of heavenly caffeinated drink, so let it be!!!

My First Guitar

It's way over my budget and my level of musical knowledge, but I couldn't resist it.